It’s been awhile since my last post.
Like … a ridiculously long while.
I’ve been in transition. Heck, I still am.
But, I need to get some stuff off my chest.
I had a movie on this afternoon for background noise as I caught up on some to-do’s when a particular line stopped me dead in my tracks.
“Sometimes you find yourself not where you want to be.”
Yep, I hear that.
LOUD and CLEAR.
Don’t get me wrong — I appreciate where I’m at.
I used to pray for what I have now. My life could be a whole lot worse.
In full disclosure though, the past four years have been no walk in the park.
I have struggled.
And struggled, again.
I’ve celebrated highs and nearly drowned in some lows.
But here’s the thing.
I never, never give up.
I refuse to give in. I will not be defeated.
The only real failure in life,
is not getting back up after a fall.
I think I’ve got that ‘getting back up’ part down pretty well now.
I’m more humble, more appreciative for what I have, more understanding of others, more loyal to those who’ve stuck by my side.
With all that I have been through and all that I have lost, I am somehow, as Rachel Hollis says: ‘made for more’.
I’ve learned to be resilient, persistent, determined, vulnerable and brave.
To get comfortable being uncomfortable.
I would be lying if I told you that there was no damage, though.
I’ve suffered heartache, disappointment and rejection, time and time again.
But you know what I discovered?
I can choose to be a victim —
or I can be the hero.
It’s my life.
This is my story.
I get to write the next chapter.
And the chapter after that.
This is not where my story ends.
In realizing this, there is power.
I’ve written it down. I’ve said it out loud. I’ve shared it with you.
I will make it happen.
And so can YOU.